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We went town today to buy smoked mutton meat for Baghera (the most delicious meat you can buy and the greatest treat he knows), but he was in too much pain after this morning’s shot of antibiotics to take it. He has not eaten since this morning, his moral is low and I am back to being worried again.

My sister and I during her last visit this winter

My sister and I during her last visit this winter

Today is my sister’s birthday. I wanted to skype her but the electricity was out for most part of the day, so I called her quickly from the landline (which is very expensive). It was great to hear her voice again! I would have given a lot just to be able to pop by and share a moment. These are the days when my heart aches, when I miss my family and when I feel small and insufficiant. But I know too that we would not be grateful for the good if we didn’t know the bad. There would be no laughter if we didn’t know the tears. And some times, being small and insufficiant is just what we have to allow ourselves to be.